随 便 啦

The day ended with a rekindled flame. maybe u won't be able to understand how it feels to be back at that fateful day, when we experience that first love with God. just when i felt that candle in me had the flame blown out, i was pulled back again, and maybe u also won't be able to comprehend how happy it is that we are reminiscing abt it once more and it is not one, but two hearts rekindled.

It all began from the dream i had, to me having the thoughts of not going today, to the time lamer asks me to wake her up to go tgt, to the time livia called me, to the time my mom called me, to the time i wanted not to go again, to the time i went, to the time livia gave me a "dressing down", to the time my best friend received salvation.

wow, i was blown away.

"Give me oil in my lamp
Keep it burning burning burning
Give me oil in my lamp
I pray, I pray
Give me oil in my lamp
Keep it burning burning burning
Keep it burning to the break of day"

"He's able, He's able
I know He's able
I know my Lord is able
to carry me through

He heals the broken hearted
and set the captives free
He made the lame to walk again
and caused the blind to see!

He's able, He's able
I know He's able
I know my Lord is able
to carry me through"



weird cos the last time i saw my mama and papa was like thurs night. and i guess it was a brief 5 mins where i just said "wan an, i go and bathe now.." the last time i had dinner w them was on wed and i guess this was the only day we had dinner tgt this week. ok, maybe 2 times. so weird so weird, i have been coming home like 11plus, 1 plus and 12 plus for the past 3 days! (that is like soooo unlike me and weird is cos mommy did nt call me at all leh.) like wat she will always do, call me at 10-11 plus asking me to faster come home.. or maybe she will ask me to better come home quickly hor. ok, i'm fos la. just feels odd that by the time i come home they are already sound asleep.. hmm, i feel like dinner-ing with them leh, and thats probably also the reason why i dun like to miss saturday's dinner. boo!

AND, HAPPY BIRTHDAE to our dearest JF!!!!! for the first time, we 3 will celebrate b'day together!!!!! (*yy.. 3 cakes and 3 sets of clothings hor. wei, now maybe can breakfast, lunch and dinner le!! ;p)

i don't know why, but i felt that my same old problem is coming back to haunt me,and i have been losing sleep.even though the characters are different, but the plot bore so much resemblence, too similar to be true.i don't know if there will be a time when i work harder than the previous.sometimes,i wish i can just blabber nonstop about the things i wanna say.this time,i won't overtry,

and it is because u matter,
it shall be the next 7 days without you.

今天，我跟家人吃了晚餐，吃得真的很饱．但是，看了看时间，２１５０，还不想回家．结果跟弟，三姐和她的男朋友去吃豆花．我喜欢坐在他的车，比自己驾车来得爽．因为车跑得很快，当我闭上眼睛时，感觉特别好．比那时走路更好，因为不累嘛．．这几天脑里想了特别多东西，也不知道到底在想些什么．．有点累，但不想睡，因为我已经睡了十三个小时了．．

zzzzzzz i feel so crap. after all that procrastination and whats with me planning the next few weeks of my hols when i actually have so many things that are left dangling there before the exams till now! untouched!

JUST rem that my passport is expiring in june, and i CANT possibly submit a visa application saying that it is expiring, yes? and yup tmr is a sunday, and monday is a public hol, and tues is LAB! argh, where to find the time!!! i need to pass it to my sis asap to get e bank draft and what have you and shing's application with me as well!!! im stressed!! ahhhhh, gotta settle this QUICK! im gg crazy, trust me. my mom said can extend online de leh.. DUN HAVE LEH..

Do I need to come personally to extend my passport?
Passport holders aged 16 years old and above are required to come personally for the extension. If a passport holder is unable to do so personally, a proxy may be authorised to do so on behalf.
The following documents would then be required for the extension:
Holder’s passport and NRIC;
Proxy’s NRIC;
Application form duly completed by holder.
However, the above does not exempt the holder from appearing in person in cases where the Passports officer considers it necessary.

and at this point, my ic still with geri!!

ok, who can be my proxy!! hahahaha! zzzz feeling very stressed leh. then i think i need to go to e bank to get an updated statement of e bank acct just to show that argh i have enuf $ for hk.. hahahah sian la! tml can??

then gotta settle the accommodation thing with shing tml! and i haven really go and look at the details of the hall YET. just had glimpses only!! must choose properly leh.. and please let me go man.. otherwise i will zzz myself at all the hassle we have gone thru..

thought that i had a pretty gd day today, cos i did my org report (i tot i can finish leh but still got a portion left.. yr 3 rpt really diff man. cannot anyhow anyhow le..this wk gt 1 rpt alr lidat next wk how....) and best of it all! i went jogging w my bro today!! FINALLY surface =))) ok botak wants to be my jogging partner for every sat! how healthy does that sound!! says YAY! (next up had better be my swimming!! and blading!!) told you, i'm determined! lets see how long i can last.

ok its like 336am now and i duno whats gg on with me. a lot of thoughts in and out in and out very uncomfy....
but having said all these, i still REFUSE to cancel any meetups that i have already planned.. WAHAHAHA! and, bro is pestering me to go cycling tml.. looks like, i CANT say no..




*anyway blogger is duno wat leh. if i put this entry on the correct day - 180508, e status will appear as scheduled and it will appear e next day... zzzzzzzzzz so i shall publish a day earlier. dotz

shit, i'm having the heaty feeling all over me now. am actually feeling cold in such weathers outside. hope there's nth to it.

ok, so special term has started. as u guys have already know, tues and thurs are my energy suckers for now.. really testing my patience.. BUT but but! i CAN take it! trick is to persevere to the end... u know, when 10am strikes, e next thing that i can possibly wish for is 6pm. just faster faster la. W, even if rxn fail, just dun complain n do it again la. im such a complain freak in lab, i think im the fellow labbers' energy suckers hahahah i WILL improve! its only 1 week that has passed, 5 more to go!! and tml i shall start embarking on my first org rpt of e week since inorg will probably be pushed to next wk and ahhhh 3 rpts next wk?? no kidding??? hope not!

just now i saw sinyee's nick.. like 'rpt soooo long' and im actually damn sian la. shall face e music tml. lucky got seniorssss =)

ok has been a gd week i guess and just when i thought i was bored cos our dear geri is on intern, so is my dear mousey. so is our mugger. and sg's owner is on a faraway land. and exams is cooping dear lamu in her rosyth hm. and same for fool. and cos our fellow chemists are hardcoring in school. BUT i realize i will be bzzz v soon!

actually after 3.5 mths of slogging,
being able to sleep without alarm,
being able to open my eyes and lie down and chat,
being able to chat till i sleep,
being able to eat my breakfast slowly,
being able to go out as and when i like,
being able to stone,
being able to online everyday,
being able to watch my tv,
being able to go for supper,
being able to talk more crap,
being able to do nothing,
are actually things which make me very happy.

digressing, pj and xue may be coming back this yr!!!!!!!!!!! yoooohoooooo, i CAN'T be happier?



byeeeeeeeeee folks, i want to go beneath my blanket NOW.

she saw a very familiar face
with whom she shared countless memories
with whom she had no reservations with
with whom she shares secrets nobody in e right mind would even utter.

she saw yet another familiar face
and amongst the crowd
her inate nature silently cries out to her once more
and familarity slowly diminishes into emptiness.

she remained quiet
and slowly she let herself slipped away from admist e crowd
and entered into her own worryland
thinking about things she dun even know
thinking about things she now dun even wish to say
not cos she don't want
but cos she don't know.

she wonders if all has been real
and silently wish that she's just being her worry wart
and that when she wakes up tomorrow
she will still be greeted by that familiar pocket of sunshine.

Prelude:

The April 18th

haha this is like 10 days b4 my b'day but who cares? i din want a party, but mom and dad planned this gathering for our uncles and aunties, nephew and nieces and cousins, brothers and sisters and ME! thank you, coz i'm happy too =)

this is like my first b'day cake of e year. yes its angie the choice again. hahaha kiddy cake rite, da jie bought it for me!

me, duno wat kinda expression is this. BUT its a form of HAPPY, coupled w a bit of paiseh. hee.

tts simply cos there are sooo many ppl la. duno how to rxt. hahaha but really happy la. see mom and dad in e pic look so happy too. yay!

thanks mom and dad, i feel like a small kid suddenly.

The April 25th

Hot Date with....

its my first time @ PS cafe

ehh cool rite =)

wats bday without cakes rite!

9/10 of my uni chem pals!! (yan ru's missing!) the nerdy chemists!! really thanks soooo much la. i know who exactly is in the mood to celebrate b'day on the first day of exam rite?? and after that lame and irritating anal paper??? tell me who so gd??? its THEM! totally appreciate them to bits la.

check out how we eat e cake! cosy not??? lol
made with love. :) :)

special thanks to our smart igirl

very interesting card from our dear miaoster

tada! that was it! it was back home studying for physical.. its fan wai yip and xu qinghua again.. i was really pretty sian la. cos like.. W

BUT!!

what is this!!!!!!

just when i studied kinetics until very sian and lie my head on e table wanting to tk a nap, aunty cacah came up to me so excitedly to go downstairs! i was like, what happened?? then she said, hahahah ur fren say cannot say!! (like lol rite) i was actually excited already. ok, is it geri i asked??? she refused to tell me la. hahah.

and guess what?? 2 i-duno-how-to-describe-superb friends came to my hse with this!! they were like duno in my hse how long already la. i was like TOTALLY, EXTREMELY, SUPER happy. really duno how to describe those kinda feelings but its like hey, im really too blessed to have friends like you all. and like quoting geri, will keep you all like baby kangaroos in my pouch, FOREVER! =)

(ok, from here onwards, i'll be clad in unglam clothes, W!)

it writes: HAPPY 21st Birthday BOTAK! HAHA!

this is botak! i love her la!

and this is my all time lover! haha! she has exam e next day ok. its like super 够朋友 la!! set standard high high also la you =)

its relightable candles la. my diaphragm got not as much energy as yy's.. hahaha yy, u are better at it. i bloww sooo many times la! ha!

im the big shot of the day! ha!

i like this! though it is dark. hahaha nv knew the legends will come together one day, am i right?

come, i promise, rain or shine, happy or sad, cold or hot, lethargic or energetic, i'll be the friend you call and i'll be there.

that silly goat.

like, its THEM!

hahahaha ok i tired liao. and last but not least, its celebration with my family!

my ice cream cake! nice not!! this time is NOT angie e choice! hahahaha

ok i know i look very chui already. was very warm and its 10 plus and i'm left with 4 chapters. woohoooo no wonder i din wanted to go for exam tml.

i wish that..
hahahah they are below me in ranking! BUT they have edusave! not fair!

i love them. big or small. fat or thin. young or old!

and lastly, sth random, i had haagen daaz this year too =)

i took sooo long to put this up.

thank you everybody!!

lets spell, L.O.V.E!

nothing in particular

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

♥ 1:22 PM

somebody told me to pay greater attention to my energy givers rather than energy suckers.

so, are you my energy giver or energy sucker?







sucks, its 2218 liao so fast. see la, slacked my 3 days away. now rushing like a mad girl and i seriously din know ss is sooooooooo boring and sooooo much ! i fell asleep reading the text! bleah. back to ravi chandran. hello mr chandran! can't wait for wednesday to comeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

squeals a small hooray

Sunday, May 04, 2008

♥ 9:46 AM

(attn: this is a whiny post, dun read it if u dun feel like hearing me whine)

small hooray for having cleared all the chem mods, and best of it all finishing organic yesterday. well, they are all v chui, maybe slightly better for physical. but then again, its over!! for now, still got our dear biz law. but yours truely have already went on a shopping spree with her other chem pals ytd!! (where 3/6 of us have officially finished exams. i'm the other pathetic three of cos.)

haha, but ur lamer here is weak lor. sometimes i just can't stand her. she catches a cold every other day, and falls ill every other month. hmmm. locter neo thought that she could probably be ur own locter, and ignores the constant diarrhoeas over the past 4 days, thinking that she is tough enough to endure it. anyway, its just shit wat. hahaha. how blunt. so she just go toilet lor. but on thurs she was erm like a bit ehhh a bit too much shit le hor. then she dun really dare to consume anything much, and ok, even water lor. but of cos, its not a right move la. diarrhoea must drink loads of water de leh, actually she was aware of it. then at night, ok lor, the cold bug seems to be knocking on the door. scared, she popped in one of her regular cold monster pill and slept early. the next day, argh wa liao exam liao leh dun lidat la.still got cold. she popped in another one. so far so gd, went to meet xy reach sch all that still ok. then waaaaa, do paper halfway it came lor. piang, cool liao lor, i held my nose and push electrons. ok la, so loh soh. actually do shopping dun have liao. but it came back at 8 plus so when i went home and had the super drowsy pill lor. when wake up my whole body like aching like mad liao. knew it, fever lor. wanted to ignore it, woke up at 11 plus, went to have breakfast. shit, my breakfast is dry kway teow with chilli, my fav! but my throat like uber pain leh. mmm, i still finish it anyway. after that was like terrible liao so went back to sleep all the way till 4. ahhh, then sian, fever again lor. drove out to see Doctor, loctor not working. haha then hooray, the only consolation is handsome doc was there! lol.. ok fine like whatever right. but he's nice la. spent like a freaking 38 bucks lor, damns. and told aunty and bro dun tell mommy i'm sick, elseeeeee tml i can't go to my ad-hoc lover's party!!!!!

ok and the doctor said:
alice, u have a very sensitive nose, and it is here to stay. there is no cure/solution/formula for it.

(uber sian)

Life on earth is but a temporary assignment.

Thursday, May 01, 2008

♥ 1:42 PM

i believe in that, do you? probably not. maybe i've not experienced how it is like to be at the brink of death, how it is like to feel real physical suffering, how it is like battling that little pumping system that is left of your heart. of course, i've not.

for the first time in my life, i attended a teenager's wake today. maybe a young adult, poly student i think. haven't talk to her before, seen her a couple of times, and last seen was her photo. and she was lying behind that.

and for the first time in my life, i attended a wake which held no rituals and the like. it was the usual pastor mark, this time bringing all of us into prayer. and they were fellow friends, who sang their hearts out, praising the Lord. simply cos, we held on to that common belief, that our fellow friend has made her way up there. how? only one way.

even though we may not have even exchanged any form of greeting watsoever, but i can feel the pain of cos. however, let's bear in mind that, even though there are many things we can't comprehend, God's ways are forever higher than ours and we should give thanks in all circumstances. Afterall, the place up there is definitely gonna be a place better than on earth. and surely, our life on earth is only temporary.

it made me ponder alot today. cliche as it may be sound, but is really of life itself. and it made my that desire stronger, cos i want to spend that eternal life with everyone whom i love.

ahhhhhh. nevermind me.



"Lord, remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Remind me that my days are numbered, and that my life is fleeting away."

alice, e lamer
21 years
S'porean by birth, nus chemist by choice, Christian by grace
Loves God, family and friends



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shuang
hanmei
xinyi
ken teow
soon huat
cousin eric
mich
yuk
yeeyun
yuhan
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shing!
yixin





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