talk, an everlasting word

where there's a will, there's a WAY!!

Friday, March 30, 2007

♥ 9:54 AM

haha, sometimes i wonder if i m bluffing myself.... but i need some motivation n encouragement ya? cos i just seen the mountain of work in front of me.. or rather not in front.. buried in my drawers n shelves.. just handed in pr2202 prj today.. wat an achievement.. 1 down, yet i still have another gek essay to work on... nv ending man. how i wish all the essays, lab reports, assignments, tut, prob set can stop now so that i got time to catch up... but argh no time!! nvm, where there's a will, there's surely a way!! lets be positive!! hahah, even though i got no time now, but if u will eat banz with me, i'll surely go~~ haha.

okay let's be inspired by some motivational poems ok

If
If u think u're beaten, u r
If u think u dare not, u dun
If u'd like to win but think u cant
It's almost certain u wont
If u think u'll lose, u've lost
For out of the world w find
Success begins w a fellow's will
It's all in the state of mind
If u think u're outclassed, u r
U've got to think high to rise
U've got to be sure of urself b4
u can ever win a prize
Life's battles dun always go
To the stronger or fastest man
But sooner or later the man who wins
Is the one who thinks he can

Dun give up
When things go wrong as they sometimes will
When the road u're trudging seems uphill
When the funds are low n the debts are high
And you want to smile but have to sigh
When care is pressing u down a bit
Rest if u must, but dun quit
Life is queer with its twists and turns
As everyone of us sometimes learns
And many a failure turns abt
When he might have won had he stuck it out
Dun give up though the pace seems slow
U may succeed with another blow
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the cloud of doubt
And u nv can tell how close u r
It may b near when it seems so far
So stick to the fight when u r hardest hit
Its when things seem worst
U must not quit

familiar ma..?? tiew gave us last time one.. hahah hope that motivates u :)

a walk forever

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

♥ 3:45 PM

even the seemingly happy-go-lucky person will also face problems, who else won't?

nowadays keep having the sourish feeling every now n then. so much worries, studies n personal. life is 辛苦 enough, why make 心苦 too? haha. i begin to see more light now, maybe its always better to take things in a more positive light?

i hope time can heal the pain. i hurt u deeply first n i hope i can make it up with time since i cant turn time back. haix. i think my punishment is severe enuf right but i just dun wanna ever lose u.

to all who are facing problems i hope you all will think ultra carefully before u act ok.. dun b like me.. but no matter ur decision u will have my support definitely.

sometimes a walk is good. a long walk is better. and perhaps a walk forever is the best.

to my precious frens out there - i love u!!

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

♥ 5:10 PM

actually i just came back from prj.. quite tired, so in the end realized mac at bras basah doesnt have any power points and we can't access the net.. (duno is it jus us, but connection was unavailable) well so we have to make do w non-internet conditions and with that dreamweaver stuff which we know nuts abt.. haha thats not the issue, im tired yet i feel like blogging aft reading the fool's blog. somehow kinda twitching.

its so gd and warm to have an old fren isnt it? frens whom grow up with u - the pri and sec frens. frens who played with me during my young days, frens who get all happy just playin a tune over the phone to the other party, frens who write letters to each other even though they meet every other day and frens who talk crap with u when u just have nth better to do. then we also have frens who cry and give u a hug simply cos they are worried that u get punished, frens who play hide and seek tgt with mr ho in the market, frens who wash toilets tgt, frens who get all happy squeezing into one neoprint tgt and simply frens who will stay on the other end of the line listening to wat u have to say.

i have many gd frens and i m so thankful. like i always say, there are just some ppl whom we cant afford to lose cos the footprints that they had left behind have become so stubborn that no matter how hard u try to take it away it will always be there. maybe, time is an impt factor. maybe. many a time we often say aiya time isnt really a factor but more often than not, we fail to realize the impact time does to a person, a frenship. there are frenships which are strong and need not much maintenance. yet there are frenships which are still budding and need the extra care n concern. i duno, maybe sometimes we really neglect impt things and have no idea how detrimental the effects will be.

dun be like me.

however, i feel really much better now. i think fool's quite a gd advisor maybe i must say she really understands me quite a fair bit, afterall we grow up tgt isnt it? i really hope time will heal all pain and all i can do now is to wait, wait and just wait.

i believe in miracles and tell me they do happen, don't they?

haha btw, fool i wan to correct ur 4 golden phrases:

the stone after u throw
the words after its said
the occasion after the loss
the time after its gone

ppl, rem to cherish everyone around u, including me! :)

a special one for fool

♥ 1:42 PM

Thanks FOOL!

lots of love haha! :)

a disease

♥ 1:44 AM

sighz.

the previous entry abt the sunshine aft the rain is so fos, cos life has not been better since 25/2. haix, i duno how long i have to wait, but i'll wait for as long as it takes? i duno how long this tired heart of mine can withstand though. i pray and pray that every tomorrow will be a better day. :)

life has changed drastically for me. even my sis realized that there's a missing voice in my life. yeah, but someone wanted to have a change in lifestyle and i am clueless as to how much deviation that is from the former.

i feel slightly better these days, i tell myself that i will concentrate on my studies and meanwhile still hoping to hear sth gd someday sometime somewhere. (maybe)

it has been a long time since i last visited qiu lian ban mian. going to pw seems a totally odd feeling now.

hmm, 期待原来是一种伤害....

im beginning to settle down, trying to fix the mess of my sch work while trying to mend the broken parts of my life.

anyway just ignore me, i'm having the emo disease.

on a sidenote, i feel happy that lsm lectures have ended!! no more 8am lectures for me and thats why im blogging at this time now at home.. just a one hr tut today, how cool is that?

YAY~~!

Monday, March 05, 2007

♥ 2:03 PM

Yippee, there's finally sunshine after the rain :) :)

Suddenly i feel happiness returned despite the numerous tests and assignments next week.

Thank God.

so, happiness can actually be felt in times of stressful moments.

haha.

YAY.

Internal torment

Thursday, March 01, 2007

♥ 1:02 PM

Haix, i think by far this is the worst mental torture that has ever happened to me.

Theoretically it seems fine, but it isnt, i know that. I think she hasnt totally gotten over it and neither have I man. it's such a torture, cos im thinking about that lamer every other time. i havent experienced such a thing before, maybe cos the last stupid quarrel/misunderstanding that happened was so long ago that my brain cudnt even recall. but then again, i havent had such a serious thing happened before - never. it wasnt serious at first but seems like it was me that has resulted in the present situation...? haix, i really do not know.

even as i try to burrow myself into books my mind will unconsciously drift away, hoping that she will give me a tinkle at any moment. only that can ease me now perhaps. my heart is pumping very fast, im so scared that it will pump too fast. i really nv expected such a thing wld ever happened to us, but just hope everything will turn for the better.

i saw the pic that we took tgt on her bday last yr and i cant help but miss her so damn loads. im not a les, but its amazing how important friends are to me. it's really amazing.

i hate myself for being so stubborn, i hate myself for being so childish. i hate myself for bringing the trauma that is happening to me right now.

I pray that things will change for the better. :)

although u'll never read this, but i just wanna say, i'm so sorry.