a HeLpless M.E
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
♥ 7:49 PM
I can't..i can't..can't bear to c myself fall into this bottomless pit but i feel so helpless. there appears to be nth tt i can do. its clearly proven. studied for my fac test, but wat did i get in return? a 52.5%! i'm totally speechless. seem so loser yet i can't gif up. wat e.. i realli sense the ku shang jia ku de gan jue~ if only if only i could turn back time, but wat's e use of bringing up e mission impossible? in fact, i jolly well am clear of this logic but apparently i can't accept this painful reality and tt is the fact that the probability of me not able to hang in there is damn high! haiz. i sounds chao pessimistic ba. But tts life in Jc. I hate every single part of my life ever since i step in here. nth tt i enjoy. everyday is simply just a repeat of another, a repeat of a torturous day~ tts wat they call life. guess some screw muz be loose up there. mayb it was a wrong decision. but its too late to say tt now. just haf to struggle thru and hang on tho' the part tt i'm may b holding on to may just be a pathetic thread. sounds ku ba.. haha and my grumbles seem like it would last for eternity..there's simply no end to it unless there is a curb to this agony. haha. sian la if time permits which is impossible, i promise 2 treasure and appreciate every moment.
a sucky monday morning
Monday, August 16, 2004
♥ 5:36 PM
It is only a monday morning believe it or not and i've got to start the week so badly. who spoil it? -->its none other than the most detestable yoong. just becos i crossed her path during the kids read thingy she must make my life so miserable in tpjc huh? can't believe such teacher actually existed. she's a shame to the highly reputable chemistry department in my sch as well as to the cip department. her years as HOD of cip has taught her to become the dregs of humanity. Yucks! she sucks totally! wah i blame it on my rotten luck to even know her! thank goodness she isn't my chem teacher or else i'm doom for sure! heng sia~ never have i ever been so pissed b4. oh maybe this is the 2nd time. remembered tt fateful incident, sux, everywhere there are bound to be the existence of such horrid, downright despicable teachers, i've got nothing to say.
haiz, maybe my mood is really rotten today tt all these things just come out naturally out of my mouth in less than 5 mins. i feel v sad lor, to think i actually studied for my chem prac, tho' its only a trial but i can foresee the humiliation tt i'm gonna face when mrs neo goes thru the paper next week? oh gosh, y am i so down on my luck?? haiz, so sad! feel like crying but i felt anger more than sorrow..a bitter combination of both perhaps! life sux, just hope tt my efforts will pay off in the long run, promise to work harder, and to challenge a fact tt is already in place: Dreams can only be dreams.
