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Thursday, January 31, 2008

♥ 9:11 AM

i'm so sad la my hair is uber short now itchy brain la why want to cut hair whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

uber short fringe (shortest i ever cut) and shortest hair (shortest after jc)

maybe lab dun need tie hair liao zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

i look so uber zzzzz that i dun even wanna look into the mirror

arghhhh dun make me feel any worse by laughing at me when u see me ok

haha

speechless

its e ultimate time of jan

Sunday, January 27, 2008

♥ 2:18 AM

.. the time, i really miss so many people.. tt each time, it sends a weird feelin' down my spine

it all began when i really felt like talking to lamer after a couple of days straight tt we din really had any conversation and i felt really worn out from all that workload and weird feelings of late.

and when she called me on wed, i was not able to pick up her call. and when i returned, she was in mj.

that night, i asked bud to send me alot of msg lol and i particularly liked the chinese one and suddenly felt like sending it to xue. (but her hp cant read cl..zz)

and the weird feeling came back again, cos i really hope i can see her soon.

and just on thur i was saying i kinda miss yx and hadnt been seeing her ard in school for so long

and there on fri i had to meet her in e toilet

and just when im all that worn out from the shopping for lame shoes and accessories, i met eileen on e way back

and to end it off, visiting an old fren's blog (after a donkey yrs) and having all the memories flooding back one by one

how overwhelming... (but its so me isn't it, to miss people and all that stuff haha)

but of cos, i love the company of the people around me.... if u guys were not here with me, i'll start missing you all too.. lol.. in a lame mood :)

i also wanna be wordy :p

Saturday, January 19, 2008

♥ 3:57 PM

hello all, so the first week of sch has ended, with 2 off days cos professional comm will commence next week. cool, cos i got my season parking at science! (no more raffles hall and having to wait for a1 and c.. happiness =) ) cool, cos i get to see my dear friends at sch more frequently. uncool, cos the chem lectures cant seem more alien to me. uncool, cos the crazy life is about to begin.. and also cos, that means i will be seeing less of some ppl i love.. and also cos, i will not be taking same modules as some ppl and i kinda already start missing her already.. after all, i love to park beside you and go home tgt!

digressing, i realize i feel very happy whenever i see wonderful changes in the lives of ppl whom i love.. esp when at some moment in time, u have almost thought and accepted ppl's ideas, character, etc and felt that they will nv change.. BUT one thing for sure there is nth He can't do. =) i'm still working towards a closer relationship with Him, cos believing is really insufficient.. and i hope e day will come when the ppl ard me would too.. hmm, talking abt religion takes some courage isn't it? esp when we know how much objection and sensitivity it raises.. BUT me writing all these down, simply means i am sincere in sharing with you about the new changes in my life, and i hope that that day will come soon when we are able to share each others' happiness in the changes in our lives.

on a separate note, sometimes certain things are hard to comprehend, and maybe, it is just like that. like how in e past some close friend's b'dae would matter so much that i would make sure i msged at exactly 12am, but yet today, i disliked myself for procrastinating for that mere 30 mins of sleep. how in e past a close fren of mine wld call me every now and then to chat, and yet today, we only talked during holidays. haha. and i can't explain why i feel so crap when i can't feel that similar love and care from somebody i cared so much for. can't explain why i duno how to describe the feeling whenever i hear a close fren mentioning Ant's name all the time. can't explain why i would sometimes hang up a close fren's call for another close fren's call. can't explain why sometimes im just so lazy for some impromptu outing yet sometimes not. anyway, no matter wat that i have mentioned above, even though some things have changed, and some things i can't comprehend, actually the fact remains the same that you all still matter a great deal to me and this has not, and will never change.and, i still love all of you as much, not a tad less.

energy giver, energy sucker

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

♥ 4:36 AM

who and what are they?

睡大觉

Friday, January 11, 2008

♥ 4:01 PM

没有特别事情发生..
只是突然累了, 一种说不出的累..
我说过了, 凡事都得以平常心对代..
我知到我做得到
只不过, 现在觉得特别累
不要理我, 我只想睡个好觉, 明天就好了
晚安..

our special new year

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

♥ 4:48 PM

ok this is the uber outdated post.. not my fault, but cos blogger failed me on 2 occassions after ur dear lamer here has completed her uber lengthy post.. well, so since she has lost all the enthusiasm to be naggy, she will just write a short and sweet entry! basically, new yr's eve this yr is very special for me.. =) in 05, i wasnt able to go for countdown. in 06, i was able to go for countdown. in 07, i was not only able to go for countdown, but also stay out the entire day/night.. wow, wat an improvement! lol

so, in 07, we camped at yy hse.. hope my loud voice hasnt been too noisy for them.. (they keep sayin i talk very loud leh.. got meh.. hmmm) and the chefs of the day were hm and jf! fa and yy were just cutters lor, dun fake hor.. and they chased poor st, yh and i out into the living room cos we were supposed to be the plate washers.. eeeeee not fair, they dun believed that i could whip up a nice and yummy dish of fried rice. hmpf. anyway, we had spaghetti, cream of mushroom, broccoli w mushroom and fried chicken wings! they taste yummy hor. =)

and since our dear hm was dressed up for the night, we went out for countdown in the end.. and dear fa was wearing yh's skirt!! (hee, long time nv see my wife in skirt, how ironic.. lol.. ) anyway, as u can see, all of us except for hm were all very lok cok.. but well, who cares???? (this is better than the suntec experience ok. so got improvement afterall :p) well, we walked alot that night... ignore the part which we had a hard time finding for lots.... stucked in jam.... BUT still got see fireworks hor. and countdown was special also, cos we countdowned in 2 groups at the same time! using this high tech stuff called hp.. ok, zzz... well.. and we ended up at arena... cos we wanted to go eski bar to chill (really chill, u know, yy's sticky arms become non-sticky like in 3 mins or less la!)but was too packed..

first time in such places... seriously cant stand those colourful lights that flash every second, and the music that blasts at exactly the same rate.. hahah.. amazing.. but still, i enjoyed myself la.. cos i have great company! wei, and u have no idea how high somebody :p can get hor.... (shocking..!!!)

left arena at abt 4 plus.. damn sweaty la.. but still continue with photo taking.. u know, after leaving e place, i felt like my ears suddenly cant hear la.. and my voice turned man.. oh gosh, that low, manly voice lasted at least 5 days.. and now im still suffering from the aftermath of the phlegm (how to spell??) in my throat.. been coughing like mad.. arrrrrrr.... (but i had tom yam kway teow at thai exp todae.. zzz rite, but it was nice la.. haha) had roti prata that night at some place at thomson.. niceeee, i love pratas! trust me.. haha

anyway, by the time we reached yy's place.. hm ko-ed, yy shortly after.. and we played cards till st and my turn to sleep an hr only (with lots of disturbance from our dear yh and fa.. keep poking our fats.. zzzzz) the da xiao game damn fun la, i want to play again next time!!!! and the day ended with spaghetti again.. ok fine, maybe not spaghetti exactly without sauce, and fried with egg, carrot, crabmeat.. hahaha and last but not least, our 21st b'dae celebration with our ice cream!!!! wat an OD day....

and hor, i think i nv drove so much before.. cool su lin.. hahaha.

ps: its damn long right, STILL.

this is especially for xue and pj... wish u guys were here too =(

see the cards on yh and jf.... :p plus yy's shit! hee

=lifetime frens=

what drives ur life?

Sunday, January 06, 2008

♥ 7:49 AM

..many ppl are driven by resentment and anger.

they hold on to hurts and never get over them. instead of releasing their pain through forgiveness, they rehearse it over and over in their minds. some resentment-driven people "clam up" and internalise their anger, while others "blow up" and explode it onto others. both responses are unhealthy and unhelpful.

resentment always hurts you more than it does the person u resent. while ur offender has probably forgotten the offence and gone on with life, u continue to stew in ur pain, perpetuating the past.

those who have hurt u in e past cant continue to hurt u now unless u hold on to the pain thru resentment.

haha, i think e above applies to me.. and it seems quite true.. yes, we are products of our past, but we dun need to be prisoners of them. well said! i got the 感触颇深 kinda feeling again.. hahaha.

currently reading a book on e purpose-driven life.. a really gd bk.. hope that i'll start 08 on a positive note, with e purpose in life. cos without a purpose, life is motion without meaning, activity without direction, and events without reason. without a purpose, life is trivial, petty and pointless.

what then is ur purpose in life and what drives you? =)

happy of nth in particular

Friday, January 04, 2008

♥ 9:06 AM

i'm happy today! not cos i went out with people whom i love. not cos i bought anything i like. not cos i ate sth fantastic. not cos i have been preoccupied with stuff i like. not cos my modules have been confirmed. not cos of anything in particular, but cos! i regained my energy!! (as if this's not sth in particular, well, whatever ~~ ) have not been updatin on the exciting eve i had on the 31st, cos haven received the pics! but b4 i could even enjoy my 1st fully, my body gave up on me and fell sick for 2 consecutive days till today when i can feel bit and pieces of my energy slowly returning to me! yayyyy hooray and so, i'm happy! ok i know this is a lame post, but school is starting, the boring days are about to come and say hello to me liao. ok, but i'll start everything on a gd note, i promise! =)