koped this from yixin..haha we r taurus! the bull! weird is they nv mention abt being stubborn??? wahahha

TAURUS WOMAN
Taurus woman is funny and a jolly person.
If she gets really mad at you, you will suddenly become a totally and completely stranger to her.
She will be very persistent in what she is doing
If you like a woman who always thinks of love and romance, then you are dating the wrong girl. You can not tell her to stay at home.
Love is in her head, but Freedom is in her soul.
She has her own idea about love and afraid to show her true feeling for fear of rejection.
She is not good in showing when she is in love, but if she loves you she will be honest to you than any other women.
She will be honest to her love one, but at the same time seem distant.
You will have a good relationship with her, if you allow her freedom.
She will be different than other girls, and she thinks different is one of her unique quality.
She is a public figure but belongs to no one.
She will not stay with you, if she thinks you are not sincere.
She likes you to have personality, but better not to compete with her.
Loves her, but not too much for she afraid it will limiting her freedom.
She is not a jealous type because she has to know you thoroughly before accepting you in her life.
She will never disappoint you or hide behind your back to make you loose face, but she is the type who just going to tell you to your face that " We're better off breaking up".
She likes to learn about your dreams and your thought.
She has fun teasing you and making jokes.
If she did something wrong, she won't hide it from you.
She hates to owe people money and take promises seriously.
If you promise to pay her back, you'd better pay up.

haha quite lame now i got tons of things to do actually but im just soooooo lazy sian

its 1:46am and my eyes are shutting but i still wan to type this entry cos i scared once i wake up all my gan chu gone le ahaha

went to s'pore cheshire's home early in the morning.. was late :X like again rite met xiaoli on e train again ha we were late on both meetings sia zzz ok anw tts besides the pt. the meeting ended earlier than expected, ard 3. had lunch w them at s11 at amk till abt 4 le. took 135 back (and i was actually like 2 stops away from the terminal..so....it is a rather long journey) 135 used to be a bus i love taking (esp to pw) when i lived in circuit rd. bus 76 is 135's wife cos they always come together and it's quite true. (one of alice's old famous bus theory =P) it bypassed yy's place and i recalled how inconvenient yy's place was from my current place i had to change n change buses haha ok then it drove into upper alj lane (fa's place) and suddenly i rem the first few times i went to her hse. i always cannot rem where to alight and will always use the hotel winsdor as my guide and slowly as i got used to it we always go to each other place cos our homes were like 5mins bus ride away only. she used to come to my hse to use my pc bake cookies etc while me gg over to play vos haha tts when i got obsessed by the game itself. 5 mins away from her hse will be my old hse. suddenly i missed the prata there sooo much. got the urge to go down to grab a bite today but it was raining. missed that bus stop. the bus stop where i wld always turn my head to see if my bus 65 is coming. the bus stop which i will always run towards from afar. saw 40 along the way so alighted. it made a turn at the "roundabout". saw the familiar bus stop which i'll always have to pick my nephew up from sch in e past. i dread picking him up last time cos i was too lazy to walk that dist and also it will also disturb my work mah (am a hardcore ok). saw the familiar fresh bread shop (forgot the exact name) sells fantastic bread at 40c a piece (quite small) but damn tasty. that bus stop was one which is quite memorable esp on rainy days. i rem there were times when i 4gotten my umbrella and i wld run all the way from tt bus stop to my hse ended up getting all drenched cos its always unsheltered. that bus stop is also one which i always missed cos i fell asleep and ended up walking back 1 long stop back. that bus stop is also one stop which i'll always chat w xue till her 158 comes. i wont 4get how we always take a long journey back from tuition tgt to come n change her 158. one of the most unforgettable is the time i left a scar on my chin. we missed 3 buses can. 1st: the uncle din see us. 2nd: we din see the bus. 3rd: the bus broke down. we were that sway k! i wont 4get! never! those were the days. bus 40 does pass by my previous workplace at epak. i saw the long stretch of road and i could picture myself running that long stretch cos i was like a freaking 20mins late for work on my 3rd day. i could also imagine myself waiting for some kind soul (which did) shelter me all the way to epak when i did not bring an umbrella just cos it did not fit into my tiny pure milk bag. i could also picture myself walking very slowly and complaining to hm on the phone when i got so pissed off at work. haha. 40 goes to humming hse that bus stop as well. gosh, fool could u rem how often u were late and i have to wait for u at that spot? at that spot? imagine last x'mas eve we were still complaining we had to work? rem we both won prizes at the lucky draw and poor jennifer was like green with envy? and yes i do rem how we were slacking in that conference room enjoying those slacking moments and waiting for lunch to eat our roti prata. we sooo badly wanted to start making phone calls only to realize we cant slack once we're outside. we'll always intercom each other asking when's lunch. determination was shortlived and we wanted to quit every single day till that fateful day when we were desperate to quit cos i've already got a new job. that xmas eve we were still sharing the same umbrella walking in the rain. so much that has happened. indeed a memorable xmas 05. bus 40 did turn into tanjong katong. another place i stayed, goodman rd. only my earlier frens came b4? geri? jess? van? ls? hm? haha those were childhood memories meant for hide and seek, movie acting (titantic! lol), games playing and all childish stuff haa.

ok thats all in a nutshell.

indeed a journey of memories

i'm so tired walked so much today

spent my x'mas with fool haa at marina square :)

maybe its really better to go out sometimes

at least u wont have time to think abt other stuff

but i will have to accept that my pocket will burn a hole

im seriously broke now

ppl stop me from buyin stuff that i dun need k

merry x'mas to all

Hi all~

Merry X'mas!! a bit early la, but x'mas mood mah.. holidays have been real bz, going to sch like almost everyday for csc (its community service club if u still duno.. haa), stay home to call for sponsors and really just a few days out shoppin! (i'm really broke this time.. today only have 9 bucks in my wallet cudnt even pay for my dinner tonight.. sighz, why am i reduced to this state..? i din really buy that much right.....really lor)

-still haven get my shoes
-water bottle
-a pair of jeans
-a bag?
-geri's prez (HAHA! .. but so hard to get)
-etc

had been really bz lor, duno when's the last time i'm lidat.. but hor its different from the normal days muggin and rushing tut type la.. haa. that day early morning went clarke quay to meet our paper sponsors.. then went far east sq w my cell members to discuss abt the proposal.. walked to marina square from there k! to change my shirt..met my sis for lunch at there..then went to parkway to get my x'mas gift..came home and took 13 ALL THE WAY TO BISHAN.. from 650-810.. omg we were supposed to meet at 730 lor.. n im SO LATE.. pek chek lor.. haha that thurs really rush like a mad girl. but that dinner with buds was REALLY very fun. ate at cartel this combo meal for 3 was really unhealthy all deep fried stuff.. n we exchanged our gifts.. so exciting, took lots of pics.. looking 4ward to 1st jan.. going desaru with them. hehe. =D but it will be my first yr not passin somebody's prez le..mmmmmm.

ok, u wldnt want to hear abt my other days. boring but busy.

went csc today again though its a sat.. well we function from mon-sat.. more poor thing than sch days.. then went to meet up with s13 ppl.. haha like abt half the class there only.. alot in camp.. some wont call de (haha).. they still look the same.. yup took some pics think it wld be better if our gathering is at some chalet or bbq.. i jus miss those times.. imagine cyclin at 3am w kosing in e park.. cooking instant noodles for them at 2am.. playin old maid at 4am jus cos we have no space to slp.. bbqing tgt.. eating the sambal dory.. having the marshmallow melt in e mouth.. well, those were the days..

digressin, postman is late!!!! how can!!! all my x'mas cards are late..! i sent on thurs morning leh.. so angry.........

and geri's super early this yr.. i think i rec on tues lor when i haven even written half the cards.. haha..

ok, a MERRY X'MAS to all!!!!!





somehow certain things will change

certain feelings will change

many things are transient

though many a times i dun wish it is

but i jus dun feel the same anymore

n i think its the same for u too


a few wks before my exams we were still talking every single day in fact u've already entered my life unknowingly i'll anticipate ur call or msg somehow i'll hear from you during my exams i know u didnt wan to disturb me and i actually hope so much to hear from u cos i wasnt feeling gd at all during e exam period the day u left u called me and i felt much better really but when u are back and my exams are over everything seemed to have changed i duno whether is it me been oversensitive expecting too much or perhaps just wishful thinking on my part but i just feel things just aint the same anymore i look forward to meeting u initially i tried to meet up a few times but somehow they just dun turn out right and somehow i just dun even feel like meeting up anymore i've lost that anticipation maybe to u im still a kid and this may seem unimpt to u but it actually affected me alot i know that you have many other commitments but i just duno how to put it, i just feel, things have changed.

jus some random thoughts.. dun bother


Life's been sadded.. and it's going to be more sadded next wk..

wanna hear abt it

going back to sch on tues (11-3pm), thurs (11-3pm), fri (full day), sat (full day..omg sat is my family day also leh ye bei ni gei qiang zou le... :( )

u know, i've nv been so sad during my hols de leh.. i got so little time for myself! how can.. i'm so mentally and physically drained..

this week went to sch on mon, tues, wed and sat.. and next week lidat..

and i havent find my sponsors yet..

how long will this last man.. duno how long i can hang in there

but of cos i really enjoy myself during days which i give myself off.. else i wont even have off de k.. went on a bit of shoppin craze.. need to make myself happier :)

you know how tiring is it to mix around with unfamiliar ppl everyday..

seriously maybe i may seem bad, but at this moment in time i really dun care abt those bonding stuff lor.. ask me go sch everyday to bond..? tell me, wat is the possibility tt we will keep contact after slp..? there are but passerbys in my life sadly.. maybe this whole project could have been fun, if they havent make it to taxing on my hols.. having the entire hols burnt is definitely not going to make me any happier.. and definitely i wont call that fun.. duno, i'm losing enthusiasm in everything i do.. i'm so sad.. maybe cos there are many things during this hols which i still feel like doing but yet dun have a chance to..

regrets..?

life is full of regrets.. but qian told me we jus got to psycho ourselves that this is for a gd cause.. yup im sacrificing my hols to plan for a project which is going to help the less fortunate.. i really duno whether is it i dun have that much passion or is it im just simply not..err.. i also duno wat to say.. so sad

of late, been talking to a few people alot.. somehow some ppl have entered my life and many thanks to those who have been hearing me out and riding this rough patch with me.. of cos to those whom i nv share this shit with u all.. it just means i dun wanna ruin our mood only.. ahaha..

digressin, went out w qian ken and benjo today.. guess wat! benjo is super slim le!! (no joke!!) he from 128kg can become 77kg is like amazing k.. fit guy le leh!! :D haha

okay la, will go le..

Dear Lord, please help me to be a better person.. to complain less, be more contented and be happy with everything that i have to deal with now..

wo hao kai xin wo~~~~
hehe the feeling of not going to school is v shiok.. n the thing abt being on a shoppin spree is damn shiok too.. woooooo i'm feeling the shoppin spirit once again :)

met up w geri today.. know when's the last time we went out??? 17/7 to be exact lol and it was at marina square eating petite nouilles (duno how to spell) too ahaha..

eat like a glutton today man.. ppl no more gd food for me k.. i wan to eat food court or kopi tiam.. really spent alot on food lately.. cant afford to spend soo much on food.. wan to buy clothes clothes and clothes.. saw a puma jacket today love it man.

still got alot of things i want to buy..
water bottle.. i still using that dirty sigg bottle.. haha
xmas cards (buying tml)
shoes
bag
and more clothes..

wahahaha..

ok will be back tml~!!

I want more time which i can call MY OWN
no meetings, no SLP, no nth.
just shopping, meeting up, chatting, enjoyin a time i call LIFE

just one word: sian
if u like, 2 words: super sian
if u like, 3 words: super duper sian
if u like, 4 words: super duper ultra sian
it's monday tml.........bluey blues are back
early in e morning have to go amk to visit the beneficiary home..
expected to last the entire day..thanks
duno how much of my hols gonna be burnt..
so thanks again :)
but the best person to thank is myself i guess :) sigh

duno why hor i havent even buy a single thing for my holiday and my money is like gone so fast
i bought conditioner, spent it on meals, kbox that day, paid for my 1 day trip and ta-da! not much money left.. and how many presents i've got to buy..? how many belated le..? xmas cards also not yet buy.. wow im so screwed

Time to update u guys i think.. have been missing for sooo long..
yup today is dec 5th the final day of exams..
yes i heave a sigh of relief - just cos exams are over..
but not on cloud nine.. cos my exams were a disaster.. esp last week.. wanna hear abt it? mon was cm1101 modern chem - the paper was not very hard, but sooo many questions that u simply cant finish them in 2 hours.. i made several cant be forgiven mistakes.. and wasted so many marks.. tues was inorganic chem - an expected disaster. thanks to the trial exam. imagine: 4 mcq = 20 marks, 1 qn limit to 10 words = 10 marks, only few questions add up to 100 marks. seriously speaking, i've nv done a paper scarier than this. oh, and they have crossword too. 20 marks. crossword is supposed to be easier lor, but during exam i just cant think of all those answers.. ending up getting like 4 wrong.. so means only abt 50% correct.. oh so thanks man..sigh. and the questions they set are ALL thinking questions.. no questions can be gotten out from ur notes.. i really duno wat to say.. but at least i expected that. so ok fine i tot maybe can try harder for my thurs exam: calculus. arg! wat dreams. calculus was another disaster. i cudnt believe that maths, a subject i soo loved could do this to me.. i couldnt answer question after question, question after question.. i got soooo demoralized.. i duno is it e paper too tough (i think partly) and another part is simply my brain not working.. things jus dun seem to go right.. i feel so devastated on thurs.. totally lost in another world.. duno wat to do.. i waited very long for 155 that night.. i walked very slowly home that night.. i hope that walk takes forever.. many thoughts crawled in and out of my mind.. and for once i really thought my world turned black all of a sudden.. a maths exam turning out to be like this for a total nightmare.. e inorganic chem i accepted it le.. but no, i cudnt accept the same fate for a maths paper. i was utterly disappointed. sigh, so din study on thurs night of cos, turned in very early after my shower, heart remains heavy till today. but prob cos i talked to a few ppl i felt slightly better so studied for ma1421 which is today. well the paper wasnt easy, but it was average ba. though there were qns i still cudnt do, but still at least it was okay on the whole so at least i can shout hooooray its holiday time!

strictly speaking, its not exactly a holiday though. i still havent tell u guys me and qian itchy hand go email csc (community service club) about one of the positions for 2 different events.. who knows we got in (both different events) and we were so happy! maybe bcos of the constant disappointments we get from interviews, we were SO happy that we got thru this interview. and now we are complaining cos we have to go back to school soo often for meetings. and, i dun live in hostel leh. i live at my dear mp leh. travel so far. haix. but well we got ourselves into this. and u know sth? my mkt head told me they meeting on BOTH thurs and fri leh.. i told him i meeting fren on thurs.. then he says i can meet them for lunch and just come on fri leh.. wow.. but is it like v bad? like hor? haix. i ben lai shld be very free 1 lor. but apparently.. not so now..but still i wanna go out!

there are a couple of things i wanna do for this hols:
1) i must practise driving. must let my mum give me a chance to drive alone. guess wat the only time i drove alone was not using my family's car but my colleague's. how ironic. and the first passenger i fetched was my colleague not my family member. strange.
2) must exercise!!!! i must trim off that tummy of mine. i'm determined.
3) must shop till drop!!!! must shop shop and still shop.
4) must coach gerald. (not intending to take up tuition at least for coming sem)
5) feel like trying to whip some simple dishes leh. haha. this agenda seems to have procrastinated since last year hols. haha.
6) must meet up with all e ppl i miss and wanna meet.
7) must relax relax and just relax.

can u believe that one year has passed?
i can't lor to be very frank w u. i cant believe that 1 sem in uni is over. its over! and i didnt know uni is that tough till i entered. i struggled all the way till today. it is terrible. really duno if i'll be able to make it but i know i have to, and i will. there are just so many things in life where there is no turning back.. like seriously.. i chose fos is because i din wanna waste all my years studyin science and now letting it all go and taking a totally diff subj which i may be at a total loss.. but now studyin tooo much science is really making that brain of mine burn and that blood of mine boil.. i nv expected it to be so terrible really.. nv knew lab work is so unbearable.. i tot i could tolerate all this shit.. but guess wat i actually got a C for my lab test haha.. to think that i can break my evaporating dish during my lab test and start all the tests from scratch was unbelievable.. well, in fact, i duno how i am i going to survive thru these.. xue is grad next yr.. next yr july is her last sem le.. and mine? beginning of yr 2.. wat great disparity.. and guess wat? she's grad w a deg w hons and she will be applyin for masters after that.. which is 1 yr for masters.. wow.. how envious. looking at her, i could see how far more i have to go.. but then again, of cos u think im contemplating masters? well hons im not even sure abt that cos i cant even manage a deg. how sad. things have changed seriously. things which seem to have been better have been worse. aiya i also duno wat im talking. but thats all in a nutshell. will be back tml. bye!

When things go wrong as they sometimes will
When the road you're trudging seems uphill
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile but have to sigh
When care is presing you down a bit
Rest, if you must, but don't quit
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out
Don't give up though the pace seems slow
You may succeed with another blow
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the cloud of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems so far
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst
You must not quit

alice, e lamer
21 years
S'porean by birth, nus chemist by choice, Christian by grace
Loves God, family and friends



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shuang
hanmei
xinyi
ken teow
soon huat
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mich
yuk
yeeyun
yuhan
ken lim
jess
shing!
yixin





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