Today i really feel as though i've really been such a stubborn bull my parents always like to call me ku ku niao which will super super irritate me. and what i will tell them? argh, shui bian la. wo shi jin niu ma.
BUT but! today i realized, i think i am stubborn afterall.
yes, this may not be sth i long for. sth i wish may probably vary toooo much from today. wat i wish was a day out at zoo with the family. or even a short getaway somewhere will be even better. i've not gone on a holiday with my parents since sec 1. i missed that, and i really long for the day we can go on holiday again. sadly, when will that be?
then again, i know they have always love big gatherings. of aunties and uncles. of cousins and nephews and nieces and of frens. YET as their child, i have always failed to put myself in their shoes, and why din i thought that, probably they just wanted to use this time as a chance to gather. and i keep saying NO no no dun want la to my mum. probably it had really disappointed her hor?, even if its a little? haix i don't know, but i didnt really read too much into it cos i thought, i have the right to decide how i want everything to turn out to be, isn't it?
anyway, today was it. my mum keeps askin me, see, so many people etc etc, happy not. i cudnt even show her a face that im very happy or wat. i just like smile and hahah. cos i wasn't exactly la. cos i can't stand paiseh situations. i dun even know how to react and i dun like to be the star of the day either. hahaha. given a choice, i'll definitely be the low profile one. lalala.
BUT, at the end of the day i realized. daddy and mommy care so much for me. i feel so guilty, and really is like what my mom says, shen zai fu zhong bu zhi fu. :(
here i just like to say, i really appreciate everything. every single tiny weeny bit. feel like giving them my best bear hug right now.
& about
alice, e lamer
21 years
S'porean by birth, nus chemist by choice, Christian by grace
Loves God, family and friends
