haven't lots of ppl tell u about how life lies in our hands and life is a decision by itself? but isn't that easier said than done? i just told mousey how screwed up i feel my life is. i feel so much like a headless fly without any sense of direction. the drive i had in me seemed to have vanished somewhere. just that somewhere. when my results were released for organic, i expected n accepted it. i scraped through my phy chem then. but those were just quizzes, i told myself i will work hard for the final examination. but again, it was easier said than done. the lousy results smack me flat in the face. i've not been truely in love before and i wldn't consider those crushes as love anyway. so probably i do not know how much impact can a loved one not as in family does to me. but at least, i know how much an impact a good fren can do to me. imagine, meeting a gd fren after a quarrel after not meeting for ages can already set my heart pumping like shit. the kind of feeling when u feel as though u have been replaced and meeting that assumed replacement is like what people say, piercing. however, it seems that we are getting on better. aft all, i've seen her for 3 times in less than 1 month. its good improvement isn't it? probably the agony and pain that i m going through is becos i have always believed in everlasting friendships.
give me time, i'll change for the better. maybe a successful exchange overseas to take a breather would be good.
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alice, e lamer
21 years
S'porean by birth, nus chemist by choice, Christian by grace
Loves God, family and friends
