Topsy turvy
Monday, December 18, 2006
♥ 2:12 PM
Life's been sadded.. and it's going to be more sadded next wk.. wanna hear abt itgoing back to sch on tues (11-3pm), thurs (11-3pm), fri (full day), sat (full day..omg sat is my family day also leh ye bei ni gei qiang zou le... :( )u know, i've nv been so sad during my hols de leh.. i got so little time for myself! how can.. i'm so mentally and physically drained..this week went to sch on mon, tues, wed and sat.. and next week lidat..and i havent find my sponsors yet.. how long will this last man.. duno how long i can hang in therebut of cos i really enjoy myself during days which i give myself off.. else i wont even have off de k.. went on a bit of shoppin craze.. need to make myself happier :)you know how tiring is it to mix around with unfamiliar ppl everyday..seriously maybe i may seem bad, but at this moment in time i really dun care abt those bonding stuff lor.. ask me go sch everyday to bond..? tell me, wat is the possibility tt we will keep contact after slp..? there are but passerbys in my life sadly.. maybe this whole project could have been fun, if they havent make it to taxing on my hols.. having the entire hols burnt is definitely not going to make me any happier.. and definitely i wont call that fun.. duno, i'm losing enthusiasm in everything i do.. i'm so sad.. maybe cos there are many things during this hols which i still feel like doing but yet dun have a chance to..regrets..? life is full of regrets.. but qian told me we jus got to psycho ourselves that this is for a gd cause.. yup im sacrificing my hols to plan for a project which is going to help the less fortunate.. i really duno whether is it i dun have that much passion or is it im just simply not..err.. i also duno wat to say.. so sadof late, been talking to a few people alot.. somehow some ppl have entered my life and many thanks to those who have been hearing me out and riding this rough patch with me.. of cos to those whom i nv share this shit with u all.. it just means i dun wanna ruin our mood only.. ahaha..digressin, went out w qian ken and benjo today.. guess wat! benjo is super slim le!! (no joke!!) he from 128kg can become 77kg is like amazing k.. fit guy le leh!! :D hahaokay la, will go le..Dear Lord, please help me to be a better person.. to complain less, be more contented and be happy with everything that i have to deal with now..
