HOO HOOO HOOOOORAY it's holiday time!
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
♥ 5:14 PM
Time to update u guys i think.. have been missing for sooo long..yup today is dec 5th the final day of exams..yes i heave a sigh of relief - just cos exams are over..but not on cloud nine.. cos my exams were a disaster.. esp last week.. wanna hear abt it? mon was cm1101 modern chem - the paper was not very hard, but sooo many questions that u simply cant finish them in 2 hours.. i made several cant be forgiven mistakes.. and wasted so many marks.. tues was inorganic chem - an expected disaster. thanks to the trial exam. imagine: 4 mcq = 20 marks, 1 qn limit to 10 words = 10 marks, only few questions add up to 100 marks. seriously speaking, i've nv done a paper scarier than this. oh, and they have crossword too. 20 marks. crossword is supposed to be easier lor, but during exam i just cant think of all those answers.. ending up getting like 4 wrong.. so means only abt 50% correct.. oh so thanks man..sigh. and the questions they set are ALL thinking questions.. no questions can be gotten out from ur notes.. i really duno wat to say.. but at least i expected that. so ok fine i tot maybe can try harder for my thurs exam: calculus. arg! wat dreams. calculus was another disaster. i cudnt believe that maths, a subject i soo loved could do this to me.. i couldnt answer question after question, question after question.. i got soooo demoralized.. i duno is it e paper too tough (i think partly) and another part is simply my brain not working.. things jus dun seem to go right.. i feel so devastated on thurs.. totally lost in another world.. duno wat to do.. i waited very long for 155 that night.. i walked very slowly home that night.. i hope that walk takes forever.. many thoughts crawled in and out of my mind.. and for once i really thought my world turned black all of a sudden.. a maths exam turning out to be like this for a total nightmare.. e inorganic chem i accepted it le.. but no, i cudnt accept the same fate for a maths paper. i was utterly disappointed. sigh, so din study on thurs night of cos, turned in very early after my shower, heart remains heavy till today. but prob cos i talked to a few ppl i felt slightly better so studied for ma1421 which is today. well the paper wasnt easy, but it was average ba. though there were qns i still cudnt do, but still at least it was okay on the whole so at least i can shout hooooray its holiday time!strictly speaking, its not exactly a holiday though. i still havent tell u guys me and qian itchy hand go email csc (community service club) about one of the positions for 2 different events.. who knows we got in (both different events) and we were so happy! maybe bcos of the constant disappointments we get from interviews, we were SO happy that we got thru this interview. and now we are complaining cos we have to go back to school soo often for meetings. and, i dun live in hostel leh. i live at my dear mp leh. travel so far. haix. but well we got ourselves into this. and u know sth? my mkt head told me they meeting on BOTH thurs and fri leh.. i told him i meeting fren on thurs.. then he says i can meet them for lunch and just come on fri leh.. wow.. but is it like v bad? like hor? haix. i ben lai shld be very free 1 lor. but apparently.. not so now..but still i wanna go out!there are a couple of things i wanna do for this hols:1) i must practise driving. must let my mum give me a chance to drive alone. guess wat the only time i drove alone was not using my family's car but my colleague's. how ironic. and the first passenger i fetched was my colleague not my family member. strange.2) must exercise!!!! i must trim off that tummy of mine. i'm determined.3) must shop till drop!!!! must shop shop and still shop.4) must coach gerald. (not intending to take up tuition at least for coming sem)5) feel like trying to whip some simple dishes leh. haha. this agenda seems to have procrastinated since last year hols. haha.6) must meet up with all e ppl i miss and wanna meet.7) must relax relax and just relax.can u believe that one year has passed?i can't lor to be very frank w u. i cant believe that 1 sem in uni is over. its over! and i didnt know uni is that tough till i entered. i struggled all the way till today. it is terrible. really duno if i'll be able to make it but i know i have to, and i will. there are just so many things in life where there is no turning back.. like seriously.. i chose fos is because i din wanna waste all my years studyin science and now letting it all go and taking a totally diff subj which i may be at a total loss.. but now studyin tooo much science is really making that brain of mine burn and that blood of mine boil.. i nv expected it to be so terrible really.. nv knew lab work is so unbearable.. i tot i could tolerate all this shit.. but guess wat i actually got a C for my lab test haha.. to think that i can break my evaporating dish during my lab test and start all the tests from scratch was unbelievable.. well, in fact, i duno how i am i going to survive thru these.. xue is grad next yr.. next yr july is her last sem le.. and mine? beginning of yr 2.. wat great disparity.. and guess wat? she's grad w a deg w hons and she will be applyin for masters after that.. which is 1 yr for masters.. wow.. how envious. looking at her, i could see how far more i have to go.. but then again, of cos u think im contemplating masters? well hons im not even sure abt that cos i cant even manage a deg. how sad. things have changed seriously. things which seem to have been better have been worse. aiya i also duno wat im talking. but thats all in a nutshell. will be back tml. bye!
