e fateful day
Saturday, March 05, 2005
♥ 1:34 PM
in life, is there anything tt is definite? nope, there isnt and who doesnt want to succeed in everything that they do? i wish i could. but in every situation, there are bound to be 2 distinct atmospheres, e happy and e sad.
i came home today. rather dejected. yet no one asked me abt my results. all tt i was greeted by were quarells (my sister and bro). i was thinking, does anyone care in fact? at e moment when they are arguing or fighting or watever, has it ever occur to them tt im not feeling too good today? no they seem rather apathetic, at least to me. and also, today my phone got low batt, how was i hoping to receive msg-es from my frens asking how i fare.. i was holding on to tt twinge of hope. but it disappeared within seconds as i received not a single one from u. i was sad.
i couldnt say exactly tt i am feeling v upset over my results, cos tt was wat i expected right from e start. i expected a b4 and a merit for oral and i got it. i can still rem vividly e numbness tt i got when i held on to tt results slip. expected results, wat am i supposed to feel? happy? satisfied? or wat? i duno exactly how i was feeling, but tell u, e feeling of scoring e lowest among e girls (excluding jy--i duno wat she gets anyway) isnt tt fantastic. i suddenly feel how lousy i was at tt instant. pure lousiness. of cos, even though i expected this grade, i was hoping for slightly more than tt, like a b3? so a little kind of disappointment is sorta understandable ba. i couldnt expect more, i told myself.
as for ko sing, brace up. this exam, though impt, doesnt reflect ur standard at all. dun be demoralised by these certain hiccups in life. believe in urself and u can excel :)
well..today went to watch Hitch at suntec with qian, derrick, rey, yat and dexter. quite a nice show..worth my 850..haha.. its good to let it out, u'll feel better.. :)
