++ last day of library cip ++
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
♥ 1:31 PM
well well well. tis day has finally come as i heave a sigh of relief. yep it was e last day of my library cip. my collection of e dear 30hrs~ goodness, im delighted! haha.. ppl who haven done lib cip b4 must be thinking shelfing books is an easy and slack job, BUT tt isnt true at all. esp for me and zq who have a hectic cca, tues was like e only day we cud relax abit but poor us, we just haf to face e fact tt tues was e only day we were all free to do cip, so we end up having a 5 day super hectic week. bending now, shelving books, trolley after trolley, repeating e whole tiring process is kinda really irritating i must say..haha..and TIRED is e word..haha i underestimated e scope of e work. but still i must say, i enjoyed myself today. we were really like fooling ard in e library (children's section) and undeniably slacking away. well it was our last day, why dun we just enjoy it? =P hmm me and zq merely do 1.5 trolleys.. and many a time i cant b bothered to actually put every book in e specific place la, so ended up dumping them all in some shelves..sth like tt..noe its quite mean but really, tis is nth compared to wat e guys r doing... throwing books to each other and kicking??!! i was like omg.. they were practically treating e lib as a playground.. haha.. hmm well today we were all like dominating e entire level 3..it is really cool..a pity zq is unwell..but still we enjoyed e day =D it was e most fun lib session ba.. haha.. cant believe we got away wif cheating a few hrs..whee~
k tts all abt cip. duno y must they place so much imptance on it anyway. well lately haf been feeling kind of stressed out. perhaps it may appear tt my entries always only contain those stress stuff, band and frustrations? haha, but i guess tts e main purpose of my blog ba. haiz just dun get it why e hell j2 life is so unbearable. its only feb1 and im feeling stressed out? it suddenly dawn on me tt times whizzes by just lidat. it was sooo damn slack last yr. pon-ing is just so ever prevalent. but now everyday is sian. and im kinda guilty lar. haven touched chinese ever since j2 started. jus dun haf e mood to do any compo or even proverbs or idioms or watever. not as if i noe i've done well or wat. ironically, i noe i've done badly and im serious. gosh lar, i've done e paper and i know it. its just so different fr o lvl. words tt i've nv seen b4 in my life are e qns for my paper. yep tts rite and i suck at general knowledge. yes i really do. and after e paper i was like : why did i study wen only 1 word came out? zzzzz. life's sux lar. well well well. y am i complaining so much..? haha.. and e syllabus tis yr is really insane..so sian, so hard, so dry, so boring, so irritating. wth.. phy!! wat e..i cud sense e return of tt sense of hopelessness in e air...but i still hang on.. in mid air.. holding on to tt pathetic thread which i hope to strengthen into a rope. yep i hope.but am i dreaming? mayb. oscillations, waves. everything just suck lar. i just duno wat they wan out of me. sianz, dun understand alot of stuff and haven been really in e best of moods to really sit down and try to comprehend wat e notes actually mean...haha..sian. and maths. im scared. e more i expect, e more i fear. wats gotten into me? i suck at it. concepts and stuff just dun flow in my head. like kena stuck halfway. i really lack concerntration. there's an urgent need to FOCUS. its hard, but i promise to try. hehe. e rest oso quite sian. chem is getting harder no doubt. going into e arena of chem / ionic equilibirum... tts so sian... and oso gp is sickening too. now doing topics like war, going into nationalism + politics...arghhhhh im just so uninterested. perhaps i need some motivation and stuff to move on in such boring topics, at least to me. cos i feel as if im in a frog in e well, forever seeing tt small piece of circular cloud. sometimes i really feel damn inferior. y izzit tt i feel so ignorant? mayb i need more exposure to issues. yep mayb here mayb there. im just so ever uncertain. rite tts me.
and to my fren, congrats on ur fantastic results. keep it up! =Dreally feel happy for u. told u, ur hard work will pay off de. but always rem dun let e want of maintaining at tt high spot gets e better of u. dun get too stressed out. all tts impt at all times is tt u tried ur best and rem, its more impt to maintain at tt kind of standard, rather than exerting so much pressure on urself to maintain e top score. always rem e real competitor is urself and not others. well i must say u'r really gd and all e best!! dun b so pressurized k? hmm feel free to giv me a call and i promise to do so whenever im free too! =) its gd to haf a confidante..
and to geri, noe u've been v bz, well wun expect to hear fr u often, but whenever u'r free jus try to blog ba (tts ur suggestion leh..zzz) all i can say is take gd care of yourself and all e best to u too...forever a great buddy of mine...
