lowest point of my life
Thursday, January 20, 2005
♥ 3:27 PM
today seemed a terrible day for me. or shld i say it had been a terrible yr. nth seems to go right. ppl r realists by nature i suppose, the pro gets rewarded but e weak tho hardworking gets eliminated. tts e harsh reality. my eyes watered, i duno y. y am i so stupid? but wen i did, i jus realized it was a long time since tis happened. i am a rather strong person i think, but seems like tts me a century ago. im like no different from a piece of shattered glass now. so vulnerable. i jus feel my hard work doesnt pay off. it isnt even regonised in e 1st place. or shld i say its discarded and replaced by "pls try harder". everything sounded so cliche so much so tt ur words fell on deaf ears. duno leh i feel v nan shou. (ku shang jia ku) geri is rite, its only at e lowest points of ur life then u could c more true frens? or am i jus looking at e bright side of life? living in self-denial? i duno, everything seemed to haf gone wrong suddenly. suddenly. and ive worn out. really. how?wat am i supposed to do next? Lord pls carry me through..
