Somehow..i feel as if i've grown up. i've learnt to see things and treat things differently. no longer. ever since i stepped into jc, i've always tot my life sux big time.. a life tt cannot compare its suckiness with others because of its so many downsides attached to it. i've been thru a lot, definitely no longer in the comfort zone i was in in sec sch..rather independent i must say.. in fact, so many things happened which appears to be "breakthroughs" in my life. i may fail tests, dun understand lectures, struggle throughout, but wats this compared to people studying overseas alone? when faced with difficulties, who can they actually turn to? personally, i feel so helpless, there's simply nth tt i can do though there's so much tt i wish could be done.. to c a gd fren struggle right in front of me, though not literally, really pains me.. but yet useless is e word i feel towards myself. to fly there and reach out a helpin hand is so difficult, or should i say tending to impossible. i'm sorry fren..
But i seriously think life's cruel.. its already so tough yet it still has to limit e time i talk to ya..just a bare 28mins compared to e supposedly 6hr..every min seems so important, so important tt every sec counts since 60s makes a min.. haiz.. not exaggerating.. but its realli stressful to haf a time limit.. y cant i just spend my entire day hearing u out? haiz thank God there's such a creation called msn which do connect people.. haha..haiz..but true frenz are definitely few..
returning to studies, i'm so ever relieved that promos are finally over.. slog so darn hard is also for this exam.. but yet after doing the papers, i dun feel as if my hard work do pay off.. i get e same type of feeling as the common test, the feeling tt is bottled within me as i leave the examination hall.. its tt kind of bitter cum soury feeling.. duno how many ppl cud symphatise with how i feel.. but is wat i want sympathy? i guess not. haiz. now i really agree the whole sg edu system is realli v rigid and result-orientated..but tt seems to be the life tt i'll be experiencing till the day i leave..
haiz ppl cherish everything ard u today tomorrow and forever.. cos u nv noe watever thing tt is used in future tense will be ever going to happen..
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alice, e lamer
21 years
S'porean by birth, nus chemist by choice, Christian by grace
Loves God, family and friends
